why???

didn't know how to react.. i know it would even sound pathetic pero i just heared that he has finally moved on.. that i'm glad to hear but i don't know why i still feel sad.. there's something i can't give a name unto.. i somewhat feel sad and glad at the same time… i could cry..

a friend told me that i shouldn't be sad, that i should learn to let go.. i know she has a point, but i don't know why, i still feel so low, its been too long anyway, he had just been an old familiar name on my address book but.. i don't know but it really feels weird..

senti

i just feel this song at the moment..

"Kiss From A Rose"

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know, that when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.. Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave.. Ooh,
The more I get of you, Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain, My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know, That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave.
Ooh, the more I get of you Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
…And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
…been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know, That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave.
Ooh, the more I get of you Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave
Ooh, the more I get of you Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grave
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.

this song's isn't really for me, but there's something about it that bugs me.. i can't even tell what is it, but i feel sad whenever i hear this song.. can someone tell me why..

sya kase..

its been almost 2 months since we last saw each other, yun pa yung moment wherein i'm not sure on whether we're still on or we're just fooling ourselves..
i keep on telling myself that i don't miss him but i did my part..

but..
it may sound pathetic pa nga that i included his photo in my pc's screen saver just to see his face everyday, pero i keep on telling myself na wala lang yun, that even if its all over between us, i'm okay and i don't mind..

but last nite was different.. i had a dream.. and it seems so real, parang line ng song, pero thats what i felt..
maybe that's because at the back of my mind i do miss the guy.. in my dream last nite, he was at our house, he told me everything i wanted to hear, but the blooper was i slept on him, yung parang sa sobrang pagod sa work, i forgot that he's there to spend time with me but i ignored him, i had that feeling na something was lost and still missing, then on my dream, i was suddenly awaken for no reason at all, i remembered that he was with me and it felt bad kaya i rushed to the den where i thought i could find him, and i did… almost asleep, i run to him and i almost cried, i had the urge to hug him tight and just hold him close to me..

then the dream ended, but the feelings and emotions i felt during that short period during my sleep was left within me.. i was awaken by that strong emotion, just like a line from a song "i reached out beside me hoping he'll be there", but all i could feel was an empty space…

it feels bad and it almost made me cry..