sya kase..

its been almost 2 months since we last saw each other, yun pa yung moment wherein i'm not sure on whether we're still on or we're just fooling ourselves..
i keep on telling myself that i don't miss him but i did my part..

but..
it may sound pathetic pa nga that i included his photo in my pc's screen saver just to see his face everyday, pero i keep on telling myself na wala lang yun, that even if its all over between us, i'm okay and i don't mind..

but last nite was different.. i had a dream.. and it seems so real, parang line ng song, pero thats what i felt..
maybe that's because at the back of my mind i do miss the guy.. in my dream last nite, he was at our house, he told me everything i wanted to hear, but the blooper was i slept on him, yung parang sa sobrang pagod sa work, i forgot that he's there to spend time with me but i ignored him, i had that feeling na something was lost and still missing, then on my dream, i was suddenly awaken for no reason at all, i remembered that he was with me and it felt bad kaya i rushed to the den where i thought i could find him, and i did… almost asleep, i run to him and i almost cried, i had the urge to hug him tight and just hold him close to me..

then the dream ended, but the feelings and emotions i felt during that short period during my sleep was left within me.. i was awaken by that strong emotion, just like a line from a song "i reached out beside me hoping he'll be there", but all i could feel was an empty space…

it feels bad and it almost made me cry..